Put up or shut up

There have been ups. There have been downs. There has been turmoil. There has been disappointment. Then there is ultimate relief. Relief because of the fact that you can see friends around you who care. Who actually fucking care. That's all that matters at the end of the day. She said no. I didn't take no for an answer. I tried and tried. End result? Yes? No? No.
I guess the beginning of your 20th year in this world does throw up a few surprises. Well, for me it did. Experiencing it was pure joy. Words can't describe it. But then again. End result. No.
She came into my life.
Eventful? Check.
Awesome? Check.
Memories? Check.
No? Hurt.
Goodbye? Painful.
Move on? 100%.
Everyday I think to myself that tomorrow is going to be a better day. It's not at all a bad life. Its just a bad day. Accept that and move on. Nobody can feel as low about life as I have over the past few weeks.
In the end. I had two choices. I would either put up or shut up.
I made my choice. And I'm damn happy about it.
Peace.